Even before I met H, I had already heard about him. My friends were "complaining" about him, saying he had a "bad record" with the other patients and their parents. His misdeeds were also recorded in his case notes. I also heard him using swear words freely. Though this is common, to hear it coming from a 12 year old is really quite shocking for me.
Thus, when he came over to my cubicle to find my patient, I was not too happy about it. Even when he tried to interact with me by asking me to play cards with him, I would find excuses to reject him. As I felt guilty, I agreed to play with him eventually. However, throughout the game, I was uneasy as he kept using swear words AND asking my patient to do the same. He even scolded other patients who were in the play area as well. I tried my best to steer clear of him and also hoped that he would leave my patients alone. I know I was wrong to be prejudiced against him and this is not how a nurse should behave.
Later, I found out that he is actually quite pitiful. His mother was non-existent and his father beat him frequently. This was what caused him to be hospitalized in the first place. I also heard his aunt intended to bring him overseas after he was discharged.
On my last day there, I realized that I actually cared about what happened to him. We would definitely never meet again but I hoped he would (and I told him this too) take care of himself. If no one cares for him, then all the more he should treat himself better and stay away from the "bad side"...
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